When it hurts

It's what you do when it hurts that shows how deeply God has saturated your heart.

The music began and the crowd sang yet I felt more like crying than singing. Sometimes things can hurt you and you don't even understand why. You can be overwhelmed by something that to someone else would be trivial and meaningless but in the context of where you have been in the past and what is really important to you at a given moment, matters a lot.

Then you have a choice. You can give in to your feelings and emotions or you can choose an act of will. I have learnt not to underestimate the power at times like this to force the breath out of your lungs to sing "Great is the Lord" in the middle of hurt and confusion. The devil hates it.

My second choice is to share this. Usually I would just keep it to myself and hide from the world but today it's here. I need to get better at sharing my feelings even if what I say doesn't make a lot of sense.