Stages of Confusion

1. You have this strange feeling that things aren't really right but you carry on anyway. You don't really think about it that much and you try to ignore the feeling as much as you can.

2. You wake up in the morning feeling a bit confused but you just tell yourself it's because it's too early to think. You have a cup of tea and a slice of toast and for the rest of the day things are mostly ok. Maybe at lunchtime you feel like writing a poem.

3. You think about writing poems a lot. You begin looking forward to lunch times because you know that you are going to be quite creative. You write a blog and want lots of people to read what it says but not many people seem to find it.

4. You spend quite a lot of time doing your blog and try to explain the confusion that is getting gradually worse. You try to explain how you feel in your blog but you have a strange feeling that no-one is really reading it anyway. Still you persist and hope that one day someone will come along that will really appreciate what you say and be enticed by your offers of pick n mix and consequently leave you comments. This makes you a bit more confused though because you didn't really think anyone would comment but you are happy about it.

5. You don't really know where you are or where you are going. You want someone to come along and explain it all to you but no-one seems to have any answers. You spend a lot of time thinking about things and the same thoughts keep going around in your head.

6. You just want someone to be close to... to tell all your secrets... to try and make sense of the confusion that you are feeling. You hug people that you think might do this in the hope that they will understand that that is what you want.

To be continued...